Several points i've got from the week :
1. jangan terlalu sensi nanggepin ocehan anak2 skitar.
2. jangan langsung bikin kesimpulan kl blom bisa diklarifikasi ama yg bersangkutan.
3. hapus smua ktakutan dan kcemasan yg blom teruji; cuman bikin boros energi.
4. bikin jadwal; kayaknya km harus mulai diingetin ama deadline banyak hal.
5. berbaur donk; ga da ruginya kenal komunitas baru.
KAMU BISA , Rannnnnn ... Banyak cinta buat kamu ;)
Wuiiiiih, genap seminggu ni kuliah di MSM. Gokil tugasnya!!! Hari pertama masuk aja udah dapet assignment yang bkin qta lembur 3 harian di syndicate room buat bikin critical review salah satu topik di jurnal. Sempet ga bener juga tu jadwal makan qta. KYA ... ampun DJ!!! Blom kelar 1 assignment, udah ngantri assignment brikutnya dari mata kuliah yg beda dan dosen yg beda. Ga tanggung2, tugasnya pun ajegile bujubuneng dah pokoknya!! Blom lagi kl inget masing2 mata kuliah nuntut pembuatan mini-research di stiap agendaUTS.
Tapi asli dari smua beban, ini smua jadi brasa berarti banget buat ke depannya. Brasa kl smua kurikulum kasi benefit yang ga da matinya. Qta jd kbayang tugas dosen tuh make kualitas banget. Rasa syukur ku ga mpe disini aja. Kualitas temen2 sekelas pas diskusi tu GOKIL abesss. Mau di kelas apa aja, mreka tuh pada aktif dan kasi banyak wacana baru yang ASLI aq masi sering terpana gitu kl mreka dah muali ngoceh, baik pas pake Bahasa juga Inggris. Gubrakk banget dahhhh!!
Skarang aq pilek (lagi). Kemaren udah sembuh, eh kumat lagi gara2 harus 'mendekam' di syndicate room mpe malem dengan AC yang super duper 'adem' dan kna AG pas di luar gedung. Lupa bawa jaket, hix222 ...
Minggu ini, tugas masi terus numpuk. Menggunung mpe kurang lbih 1 tahun pertama kayakanya. SEMANGAT lah!!! Oiya, pas jadwal presentasi DECISION SCIENCE kemaren, seneng juga. Walo ga bisa 100% puas ama presentasiku. Sklompok ama 2 hunky-chunky guys yng jga seru B.Ing nya bikin aq terima tantangan mreka scr ga langsung buat pake B.Ing pas presentasi. Kata kelas sih, AJEGILE!!! Tapi sayangnya pas diskusi, aq ga bs jwab 1 pertanyaan yg jlas2 kasi poin buat aq. Kl inget itu, hari yg harusnya indah dan memuaskan, jd terbentur sketika.
Wew .. SEMANGAT lah pokoknya. Masuk minggu kedua neh, tentunya dengan sgudang 'tantangan' baru dari MSM.
Doakan aq supaya kuat dan sukses di dalem dan luar MSM yakkk ;) MAKASI
CONGRATZZZZ for myself!! Finally they know 'lil-% of my capability. I think I have no sufficient times to hide my 'goldy' anymore. They should know better. Of course I should appear these with the 'luxury'. Slow but sure, then they know who I am exactly.
U ROCK, galllllll ;)
Fyuhhhhh .. those welcoming sessions has been done successfully. Sayangnya, aq ga bisa ikut arung jeramnya, takut me-merahkan sluruh air danau. LOL !!! It was fun. Hari pertama di outbond activity .. mulai dari fun games mpe arung jeram yg gokil abis. Untungnya aq sempet ikutan flying fox which was that damn cool !!! Asli, pengen ikut lagee, apalagi ikutan arung jeramnya. KUDU itu mah !!!!
2nd day was da truly welcoming session. The lecturers directed us to know MSM program better; what we will face along around 1.5 years, what the expectations we can reach in and after, and the most important thing is how we should pass every semester. Yang menarik pas ktemu Mr. Budi with his critical thinking class. Qta diajarin gmn biar (lbh) kritis lwat pargarf, puisi, juga lukisan !! Blom lagi pas diajarin pake software Mindjet MindManager by Mr. Mursyid ! Wuihhh, canggih abeeesss. Pengen segera diuji coba di materi perkuliahan perdana.
I know it's not gonna be so easy .. tapi aq hrs OPTIMIS buat bisa ngejabaninnya dgn lancar. Sayang kl ngebuang smua materi gt aja slama ada di skolah ini. Blom lagi aksesnya !!
SEMANGAT, Rannnnnnn ....
Pufff, I have had 2 bad days. Hope tomorrow is my better day to through.
1st case ... that's guy!! Oughhh, why does he take that joke so serious? Why does he need to be dat sensitive to that-really-unimportant jokes? What did I do wrong? Why he lied to me to say that everything is gonna be alrite if it won't? Why did he do that to me?
I thought we're a friend, really a couple of nice friend ... I spent 2-back days with crying. Sound's lie a moron, huh?? Trying so hard to guess why did it all happen? I need a clarification .. the rite one to answer these 'why-questions'. I don't wanna lose a cool friend (again). Enough is enough. It will affect me that bad.
One side of me says that I don't need to be like this. I'm SO deserved to get a better thing than these. That's the reason why there's a big fire on my head. I really deserved to get a better thing.
2nd case ... the order have pushed me up. My very 1st-order that can't be handled with 100% of perfection. Hate it but can't do anything well. Really ungood to feel when we know the customer will be unsatisfied by our promises. It shouldn't be happened AGAIN.
3rd case ... The administration of new season. Damn .. so many things couldn't be veiled with good.
GOD, give me ur hand ... I don't wanna feel empty. It's really not me. Rani who I knew is a stronger gal with lots of dreams and she knows how to accomplish that all. Back her to me, God. I fell like being separated of my original ME even. What should I do??
I hate him when ...
1. He don't wanna understand what my truly dreams espc. in education field and my future careers.
2. He thinks that he knows everything in this whole world, including what's kinda food i'd like to order in the very new resto (pfyuhhh).
3. He thinks that i'm an easy-gal (NO WAY!!!).
4. He thinks that i can't be great in life without him.
5. He scores a gal only from the budzz (Don't u have any brain, dude??).
6. He can't stop speaking about his prestigious things of him.
7. He loves to insist what he wants in our life (Ouchh, c'on, u'r not my husband yet!!).
8. He loves to share the crunchy-joke while I'm feeling' so upset or not interested in.
9. He don't wanna share the important parts of his life, even to me!!! (Who am i 4u, hon??)
10. He would like to prefer his another object of pleasure when i really want to be noticed .
GOSSSSSSSSSHHHHH ... I was stared at long times when that's paper set on the wall. A paper that stated all the score of our assignments and examinations along the levelling stage. I just could be quiet, felt that all of my body's parts like ice. Hard to say anything !!!! It's BAD .. SO BAD.
From hero to nothing???? What a hack!!! No one wants it. Nobody, I guess .. I should set it all again from the start and wipe all the mess i made. This couldn't be happened again. As a human, we should to create the better creations all the times. We are not that dummy one !!
I'm angry and upset. Trying to rebuild my energy and all concentration point .....
Somebody, HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!
