Why ????

Pufff, I have had 2 bad days. Hope tomorrow is my better day to through.

1st case ... that's guy!! Oughhh, why does he take that joke so serious? Why does he need to be dat sensitive to that-really-unimportant jokes? What did I do wrong? Why he lied to me to say that everything is gonna be alrite if it won't? Why did he do that to me?

I thought we're a friend, really a couple of nice friend ... I spent 2-back days with crying. Sound's lie a moron, huh?? Trying so hard to guess why did it all happen? I need a clarification .. the rite one to answer these 'why-questions'. I don't wanna lose a cool friend (again). Enough is enough. It will affect me that bad.

One side of me says that I don't need to be like this. I'm SO deserved to get a better thing than these. That's the reason why there's a big fire on my head. I really deserved to get a better thing.

2nd case ... the order have pushed me up. My very 1st-order that can't be handled with 100% of perfection. Hate it but can't do anything well. Really ungood to feel when we know the customer will be unsatisfied by our promises. It shouldn't be happened AGAIN.

3rd case ... The administration of new season. Damn .. so many things couldn't be veiled with good.

GOD, give me ur hand ... I don't wanna feel empty. It's really not me. Rani who I knew is a stronger gal with lots of dreams and she knows how to accomplish that all. Back her to me, God. I fell like being separated of my original ME even. What should I do??