In da heavy mellow feeling

Hemm .. dunno what kind of perfect words to capture what I feel this time. All is in a mess. Nothing I can do better to color this life. I just can see dat white and black; no any other bright colores assisting.

I need to swept them all away .. this messy things and that unclear stuffs. My brain is full of insignificant files. But I just dunno where to start, dude. Bad .. really !!!!

Just need somebody to talk and hear. I'm afraid if there's no any longer time, I will be damn ZERO!! I hate this and I'm quite afraid to face it. This is really not ME. Where is Maharani Kusuma Negara dat I know ?????

I'm just not dat good ,,,

GOD, RESCUE MEEEEEEEE !!!!!